Saturday, September 28, 2013

When to Stop Because We Love You

There is a certain point where no matter how much you love a person, you have to tell them "NO".

I believe that addition is a disease. It's something that even the strongest people need help to overcome.

And getting that help doesn't make you weak or pathetic. It doesn't make you look bad. It shows that you know you have a problem and you are taking the time to go thru the steps to fix it. It says that you want a better life. It says you are ready for a lifestyle change towards the good.

Now I also agree that admitting you have a problem is the first step. But there's a difference between admitting you have a problem because you want to change and admitting you have a problem and not giving a shit about it.

Addiction impacts not just you but the people around you who love you.

I wish that someone could invent a time machine. That way I could go back and slap the shit out of whoever started taking prescription medicine for recreational use instead of for its actual purpose.

The impact it has on the individual is bad enough. Withdrawal including deadly withdrawal, overdosing, lying to you loved ones, using your loved ones, stealing from your loved ones and anyone else that you can, debt, giving yourself a record from robbing or breaking and entering. The list goes on and on. Then you have the family and friends who are out of who knows how much money and can never trust you again no matter how hard they want to.

I don't do drugs. I have more important things to spend my money on. And most of the people i know who do them are always going to. When I ask them why they do it, they answer for fun. I know grown ass people with children who still can't live without their buzz. I know people who know they have a problem and don't care. And I know people in denial. Drugs tear families apart. They make you lie and they make it so that no matter how hard I try, I can't trust you. You can't make someone stop what they are doing wrong if they don't want to stop and if they are lying to themselves about their problem.

I'm just going to end this here before I get even more personal. But this is a very touchy subject to me. I just wish i knew how to help this person before its too late. Every time i try, they deny it but the signs are still there Because I love them so so much and it kills me to see this and know this every day but this person will never know that or how I feel. I just wish i could help. I just wish they wanted help. I need help to help them before I lose them forever to either the justice system or the grim reaper.

If you are reading this, never give up on trying to help someone you know who is using no matter what drug of choice it is. I know I won't but I also don't know how to help.

And if you are a user and your reading this, please get help. Your family and friends love you so much more than you will ever know and want to help and see you get better. And if you are using because you don't have family or friends, then just know that I love you and I would love for you to get clean. If no one else does, I love you and think your life is worth being clean for.

Monday, September 9, 2013

Hunger Games Review

Now I know that this book series has been out for a while and I actually did start reading it a while ago but within the last 2 weeks I have finished the last two books.

I loved the first book. In fact I actually couldn't put it down. It kept me interested and left me wanting more. Not a big fan of the movie but the nooks are always better.

The second one was a bit of a slow start for me. But by the end of it I was so excited for this next movie to come out even though I am sure that it will be a letdown as well. I couldn't wait to get my hands on the last one.

Having just finished the last one...I must say I'm actually left disappointed. All the people you grow to love die, she doesn't end up with the guy I would have liked her to end up with, and the ending just seems so...bare. Like it's missing something. I'm not sure how exactly I would have liked for this series to end but I know it is far different from how it actually ended.

I will still see the movies and my opinion of who she should have ended up with won't change. I also stand by my decision that although the last fight scene was good, the end of the story felt rushed and I was not a fan of the epilogue. This may be extremely fueled by my disappointment in the direction the plot went.

In the end I would say I ranked this series a 3 out of 5. I loved the first two books started out liking the third but was disappointed with the deaths, unhappily ever after (my opinion) and the overall "I need to end this, this sounds good" aka "rushed" feeling I got.