Postpartum Blues

Guys can take the time out to stare at a hot girls ass, to tell a girl they are a 9 of 10, flirt with girls but can't take the time out to tell their girlfriend and mother of their child she looks pretty. Even when the girlfriend is up all night with a screaming baby and lets him sleep. Starves herself so he and the baby can eat. Starves herself to lose the baby weight and eats nasty tasteless shit to lose weight and impress him. Puts on makeup to try and make him look at her the same way he did two years ago. and he doesn't even notice or care like he used to. He used to notice if i cut my hair, did my eyebrows, painted my nails. Now? Nothing. Postpartum has hit me hard and I have been trying my hardest to get back to the old me. To impress him. To make him say I look good or pretty or dare I hope to hear beautiful. But those words are long gone. I'm not pretty to him. I'm not beautiful to him. I don't look good to him. I feel fat. I feel ugly. I feel dumpy. Im trying as best i can to lose this extra fat while balancing everything else and deal with raging post pregnancy hormones. But he calls all of that excuses and says he hasn't been happy with me since the baby was born. Says that my cancer is just an excuse I use because I am always tired and never feel well. I am starting to really hate my life. All I want is for just once to hear im pretty. Or some sort of compliment other than a generic "looks good" when he didn't even look. Its just been a rough month and a half in new mommy days.

For Real Moments With Vikster: Twerking Edition

Now that I am a mom, I have something I would like to point out. It's becoming an epidemic and it's only a matter of time until we all are exposed and infected.

I'm talking about twerking y'all.

Thanks to classy bitches like Miley Cyrus twerking is becoming more and more popular. And not everyone can twerk. Not everyone SHOULD twerk. And dont get me started on wall twerks.

Now if your out with your girls at the club, or guys we don't judge here, and you feel the twerge (twerk and urge. You like it? No...ok) to get up and break it down. Maybe you've had a couple to a few too many drinks and the song that's playing is really speaking to your soul (The Lady Gaga can do that to you). Then by all means, work it girl! (Or guy, remember we don't judge) but do it like you would in Vegas meaning what happens in the club, stays in the club. Don't take pictures and post them all over social media sites. And do NOT video that shit.

Wall twerks. Have you seen those? If yoi haven't, YouTube that shit. It is when you get into handstand position and, well, twerk. Do you know how many stupid bitches have been sent to the hospital injured due to a wall twerk gone wrong? Don't try it drunk, don't try it sober. Just don't do it.

The moral of this story is that twerking, whether on the ground or on a wall, whether black, white, pink, or purple, whether male or female needs to be left in the club in the dark where no one will remember you the next morning over their hangover. 

Twerking, just don't do it. What would your grandma say?

So Now What

So as many of you know, the government has officially been shut down for God knows how long. I have been following this but am still not completely clear on the details, but from what I understand this is what's going on

Now that the black democrat president has passed his version of health care, also known as "Obamacare" the republicans are throwing a temper tantrum to try and bully their opinion, which is against Obamacare. The president isn't going for it so Lord only knows how long this will last.

Now as far as Obamacare goes, I have no problem with it. I guess my multiple medical issues that have put me thousands of dollars in debt and ruined my credit have made me soft. Who knows.

As far as the republicans, they are only a small step above the tea party, who I can not STAND, in my book. They need to quit crying and quit trying to figure out various devious ways to get Obeezy out of office and just shut up and accept it and patiently wait for this last term to end so that a new liar can take over office. Did I say liar, I'm sorry I meant...well hell they all lie.

With this shut down I don't really know what they expect to happen other than screwing us little people over even more than we already are. But then why would they care? It isn't like they think about us in their big fancy houses on their tempurpedic mattresses while sipping on wine and talking to Siri on their brand new iPad about how to continue fucking people's lives up.

Well, we will see how long this lasts and where things go from here. Until then, yeezus help us all.

When to Stop Because We Love You

There is a certain point where no matter how much you love a person, you have to tell them "NO".

I believe that addition is a disease. It's something that even the strongest people need help to overcome.

And getting that help doesn't make you weak or pathetic. It doesn't make you look bad. It shows that you know you have a problem and you are taking the time to go thru the steps to fix it. It says that you want a better life. It says you are ready for a lifestyle change towards the good.

Now I also agree that admitting you have a problem is the first step. But there's a difference between admitting you have a problem because you want to change and admitting you have a problem and not giving a shit about it.

Addiction impacts not just you but the people around you who love you.

I wish that someone could invent a time machine. That way I could go back and slap the shit out of whoever started taking prescription medicine for recreational use instead of for its actual purpose.

The impact it has on the individual is bad enough. Withdrawal including deadly withdrawal, overdosing, lying to you loved ones, using your loved ones, stealing from your loved ones and anyone else that you can, debt, giving yourself a record from robbing or breaking and entering. The list goes on and on. Then you have the family and friends who are out of who knows how much money and can never trust you again no matter how hard they want to.

I don't do drugs. I have more important things to spend my money on. And most of the people i know who do them are always going to. When I ask them why they do it, they answer for fun. I know grown ass people with children who still can't live without their buzz. I know people who know they have a problem and don't care. And I know people in denial. Drugs tear families apart. They make you lie and they make it so that no matter how hard I try, I can't trust you. You can't make someone stop what they are doing wrong if they don't want to stop and if they are lying to themselves about their problem.

I'm just going to end this here before I get even more personal. But this is a very touchy subject to me. I just wish i knew how to help this person before its too late. Every time i try, they deny it but the signs are still there Because I love them so so much and it kills me to see this and know this every day but this person will never know that or how I feel. I just wish i could help. I just wish they wanted help. I need help to help them before I lose them forever to either the justice system or the grim reaper.

If you are reading this, never give up on trying to help someone you know who is using no matter what drug of choice it is. I know I won't but I also don't know how to help.

And if you are a user and your reading this, please get help. Your family and friends love you so much more than you will ever know and want to help and see you get better. And if you are using because you don't have family or friends, then just know that I love you and I would love for you to get clean. If no one else does, I love you and think your life is worth being clean for.

Hunger Games Review

Now I know that this book series has been out for a while and I actually did start reading it a while ago but within the last 2 weeks I have finished the last two books.

I loved the first book. In fact I actually couldn't put it down. It kept me interested and left me wanting more. Not a big fan of the movie but the nooks are always better.

The second one was a bit of a slow start for me. But by the end of it I was so excited for this next movie to come out even though I am sure that it will be a letdown as well. I couldn't wait to get my hands on the last one.

Having just finished the last one...I must say I'm actually left disappointed. All the people you grow to love die, she doesn't end up with the guy I would have liked her to end up with, and the ending just seems so...bare. Like it's missing something. I'm not sure how exactly I would have liked for this series to end but I know it is far different from how it actually ended.

I will still see the movies and my opinion of who she should have ended up with won't change. I also stand by my decision that although the last fight scene was good, the end of the story felt rushed and I was not a fan of the epilogue. This may be extremely fueled by my disappointment in the direction the plot went.

In the end I would say I ranked this series a 3 out of 5. I loved the first two books started out liking the third but was disappointed with the deaths, unhappily ever after (my opinion) and the overall "I need to end this, this sounds good" aka "rushed" feeling I got.

Always A Surprise, Never A Shock

From Lady Gaga in a G-string to Taylor Swifts catty side, this years VMAs didn't stray from the usual element of surprise.

This year Lady Gaga opened with a somewhat normal performance ending with her in a g-string and sea shell bra. Taylor Swift accepted an award after Kanye West performed and made it all the way thru her speech the first time. NSYNC reunited during JTs performance and then broke all our hearts by announcing they will not be touring.

But the one performance that still has everyone talking is Miley Cyrus and Robin Thicke. Miley was one of the first performers of the night with her...um....hit...? song We Can't Stop in a teddy bear leotard. From dry humping teddy bears to twerking, this no longer tween pop sensation let it all hang out there while waving around a giant foam finger with red nails using it as dare i say her penis while she obscenely gestured to the crowd.

Cut from that to Robin Thicke coming out and her singing a verse from his song Blurred Lines now in a nude latex bikini, rubbing her foam finger on his crotch and backing it up on him as she bent over and did what she does best twerk and stick her tounge out.

Robin stayed professional with a neutral expression. The crowd on the other hand didn't bother hiding how they felt. With varying expressions of disgust, confusion, embarrassment, pity and indifference the resulting crowd shots are hilarious. Even Selena Gomez and Taylor Swift who started off supportive ended up with the same look of shock and disgust.

Now Miley, i get it. You are 20 now, you've broken out of the wholesome Disney chains and want to prove your no longer little Hannah Montana and be an adult. Hilary Duff did it, Selena Gomez is doing it, hell even Kevin Jonas got married and was upgraded to the world of the E! network. But there are other ways then prancing around shaking your ass in a bikini on national television.

Although it does sound like I am trying to be a hater,I'm not. But you can't really make a song about popping Molly, cocaine in a bathroom, twerking and shaking it like your in a strip club and how its all ok because only God can judge you, and think we as a public will A, take you seriously. And B, not call you names like skank, whore, trash, etc.

We all are aware that you can't stop and won't stop, but we are still holding hope that you will. The same way we know this was "just a performance" but you don't see other singers doing this. Well except 2chainz and all his "big booty hoes". As much as you don't care what people think, there has to be a part of you that does. As Snooki said, maybe your just going thru your Xtina "dirty days" or having a Lindsay Lohan/Amanda Bynes moment. Or maybe you are just being Miley. But one day you will be married (Hopefully to Liam if he still wants to because I know I'd be coming home with a VMA and no fiance) with kids and you will have all this to haunt you.

As I Promised

As I promised, here is my first part of my pregnancy memoirs.

My boyfriend and I moved in to our apartment in February. Before we did, my mother had a mother daughter heart-to-heart about living with him. It went a little something like this
             "I was thinking, you should probably start taking birth control because you don't want to be bringing life into this world yet"
So heartfelt, I know.

So when we first moved in, I was still at my fast food job so money was tight. I got a new job at a new place that paid better (even though money is still tight for unnecessary reasons!) And was waiting for my first real check from there to get birth control. Well that check came, but that period didn't so now here we are months later and a growing baby girl or so I'm told.

We weren't sure if we were going to keep her since due to health reasons I'm really high risk. But so far so good I guess.

Side note, my phone doesn't automatically correct my grammar like my old one does so forgive me for any errors that are out of the ordinary for me.

Im due on my birthday, December 9 but I keep getting the feeling she will be here around Thanksgiving. Being a mom is a scary thing to think about. For a few different reasons.

-We've been together not as long as I would like to have been for us having a baby
-Were not married or engaged
-I love my boyfriend but i still have my doubts
-Trust issues more than just about him cheating on me
-The normal "are we ready for this" and I am prepared for the "well you should have kept your legs closed" nonsense
-Our past

We have been together for a while. But not long enough for me to want a baby. Sure I've thought about it. You're with someone long enough, those thoughts come up. But I'm talking like 5 years.

It's 2013. You don't need to be married to have a baby. Is the idea of having a husband, a dog, two kids, a big house with a white picket fence surrounding a big yard for your kids to play in and you to grow old in and someday pass down yo your children as they carry on the family legacy in the perfect little Stepford cookie cutter community attractive? Of course it is. Im not saying sleep around and have a bunch of babies either. Im just saying we aren't in the days where we must be married and get our husbands permission to go to the store anymore. We don't have to be married to have a baby. But don't get me wrong, it would be nice.

I love my boyfriend. But i still have my doubts. Number one being are we ready for this. Followed closely by how will we take care of her. And how will we afford this. Since our lovely government thinks that people are bullshitting about being broke and wont help people who actually need it. But it seems like to me, people who don't need the help get it just fine. I guess that's what being as crooked as our government gets you. Can I count on him? What will happen when im out on maternity leave? So many questions are flowing constantly thru my mind.

Trust issues are a biggie. Sometimes in a persons life, they fall into a hard place or time, fall in with the wrong crowd, fall into hard stressful times, etc. Sometimes when this happens, things like addiction come into play. In my boyfriends case, it was a stress thing. I wont say to what because that's his business. But it happened. If he is being truthful, he has been clean for a few months now. And if he is being truthful I am proud of him. But sometimes I have my doubts. Like when money goes missing. Or gas gets used like crazy. Or when he is with certain people we know. I'm not sure what to do or think or if its even worth the fight. When I'm at work, is he talking to other girls again? If he is he will lie about it. His phone is under my plan so i could have it unlocked and search it. But I'm terrified about what I might find in there. Is he telling me one thing and doing another? Ill never know. And it kills me. In our past, we did separate and yes, it was him going for his ex. It was a horrible time for me. Watching him go day to day happy with someone else. Someone who did him wrong. Someone who didn't deserve him. Someone who used him. Someone who single handedly ruined both of our lives forever. Someone who he disrespected me by sneaking to talk to at my house while he was supposed to be spending time with me using my internet and my laptop and lying about it. Someone who no matter how hard i try i feel like I can't get him away from. I need to stop now before I start rambling on about this ungrateful female even more.

So yes, this is the first installment of my pregnancy memoirs as I said. As I sit here in our one recliner typing this on my cellphones tiny on screen keyboard while this little brat kicks me like my bladder is a soccer ball and my cats are having a twin death match next to me and a head full of questions and worries, I feel a little better by getting this out there. There are some things i can't say on here for privacy reasons. There are some things I can't say on here because people i know read this and I am already an un wed mother. I don't need any more judgement. But for the things i can say, the release of those from inside my head is an amazing relief that I am so thankful for.

Love always, Viktorius and mini me.

It's ALIVE!

Well i've been gone for a while and here's what's been going on in a short re cap...

I got a new boyfriend
We live together
I got two cats
I also got pregnant
My dog died
And I got a new job (wish i could say where)

I don't have internet at my place sadly and things have just started to settle down for me. I want you guys to know  that I am still here and now will be trying to post more. It will be from my phone so bear with me I would much rather type on an actual keyboard but beggars can't be choosers I guess.

So while I was in the shower today I got to thinking about how my body is changing with this pregnancy. Which, by the way, I will go into more detail about later. I have two friends that are also new moms that I go to for advice. I had some questions about tenderness in certain areas and was trying to figure out which friend to talk to about that. Then it got me thinking, I sort of have a list of who to call for what issue I have, and I'm kind of wondering if anyone else has this mental list. So, without further ado (is that how you spell that...) here's my list of friends designated for certain issues.

Mommy friends-the girls and fellow moms I go to for mommy and personal issues also works for boyfriend complaints

Medical advisers-for when you are too lazy and/or cheap to go to the doctor

Uppity friends-the people who you know will eventually piss you off with something they say but you still talk to them anyway and love them eventho you want to slap the shit out of them

Bitchy friends- the people who bitch more than you eventho you are six months pregnant and they are either spoiled or bring the situation upon themselves. Also friends who need to be slapped (see uppity friends)

Rich friends- always wanting to get you to go out and spend money to hang out eventho this is a recession and well, aint no body got time for that

Want to be rich friends- almost the same as rich friends but these people want you to pay for everything

Work friends- people you only see at work and the occasional facebook post. The common phrase used with these people is "yea we should totally hang out". Spoiler alert, you never will

Childhood friends-the people you can tell anything to no matter what and they still won't judge you. You need these people because face it, your a hot mess and these people know it and still love you like family

First of the month friends- these are the friends that only call when they need money. Usually for something unnecessary that will piss you off. These people think that your just dumb and wont notice that they only call when they need or want something and if you cant deliver they magically disappear like we actually miss them because spoiler alert, we don't

And

Frenemies- you love this person but you also love to hate this person. You envy them sometimes they envy you too but you both just communicate under a thin layer of mutual cattyness and bitch to your poor boyfriend who did nothing to deserve being dragged into this drama all he wants is a peanut butter sandwich and some milk  

Well, that's my list (so far) of friends i have. I wonder if I'm the only one with this problem...

I will try to be back and post more. This would be so much easier with a computer but oh well. It does feel good to be back though and get some of what's on my mind out there.

I haven't been sleeping much so maybe this will help. I guess i should try and get some sleep since i do have to work tomorrow. But Lord knows that between my bed hog boyfriend, gymnast baby and obnoxious inconsiderate snoring cats, sleep is a foreign word to me. Almost the way that common sense is in teenagers. That's all for now. Love you guys!

The Right Length For You

So after a long time of NOT posting, I finally am uploading a new post.

Tonight I think I want to address proper nail length. Nail length, as do eyebrows, is custom to you and your body/lifestyle. Let me explain.

If you know anything about eyebrows, then you know that your eyebrow shape is custom to how your face is...built i guess would be the right word. You just shape it around the contours of your face. But enough about eyebrows. I might upload a post with pics and all about how I do my eyebrows later on. Since I need to re-do them anyway because I actually do my own eyebrows.

But back to nails....
So, there are many things that can factor in on what is the right nail length for you. Keep in mind this is referring to natural nails only.

If you are always on your phone and texting, Facebooking, Tweeting, or if you are on the computer a lot, then you would probably want to go a more minimalist route. By minimalist, I mean either short like to your finger tip length or barely past it. I personally have an LG Droid Ally aka the ones that came out two years ago that I'm too broke to upgrade from lol. It has a slide out keyboard and a touch screen too. I have longer nails though and it at times is not just difficult but a pain in the ass to use both my slide out and on-screen keyboard. I can use the balls of my thumbs to use the slide out and the on screen key board which, to be honest it isn't always easy to use my on screen like that, or the tips of my nails on the slide out. it makes it more difficult to type. Also, typing on my laptop with longer nails can be annoying. They catch in the tiny spaces in between each key since i have to type with my nails vs my finger tips.

Another thing to factor into the equation is how much you use your hands, and what you use them for. Do you do your hair a lot? Are you always cleaning up/using chemicals?  do you have sensitive skin or dry hands? Chemicals, dry air, season change...things like this can have a drying effect on your nails. therefore making them dry and brittle. especially if you don't use and cuticle oil or lotions and things of that nature.

When you have longer nails, you have problems like stress points to worry about. stress points are the cracks you get at the sides of your nails where you constantly put pressure on them. The longer you keep your nails, the more natural stress points will appear. Once they start cracking, its time to cut them down. Personally, if the crack is too low on the nail, Ill try to patch it until it grows enough for me to comfortably trim the nail.

Things like this are the things that you need to factor in when deciding whether to keep your nails short and sweet, or let them get a little length going on.

Happy holidays guys. I hope you all enjoy the holiday season and have had a good one so far. I am trying to come back more often to post more often so you guys can know whats up and get new posts from me. Thanks :)

Sorry For The Wait...

Hello my loves! First, before I get to the point of this post, I would like to apologize for my absence from the blogging, vlogging and nail art community. I have been having some personal problems lately and took some time off to deal with everything. I'm still resolving some issues, but I am in a better place now then I was a few months ago, so I am so sorry for that.

Now, to nail art news, I have created an email address for you guys to send me love notes and such to :) lol.

No, but seriously, I have made a new special email address just for my nail art community people. I made it for two reasons, one being that if you guys have any requests, questions, would like to be referred to a nail guru I mention, want to send me an email about something you like/didn't like about a post or a video, etc., you can. But please, no weird stuff. I deal with enough weirdos on a daily basis so please don't make me regret making this email address for you guys.

Secondly, I am thinking about selling sets of nails designed by me. So if anyone would like to send me a set that fits you for me to paint for you, that can happen. OR I am also thinking about buying some sets and designing them to sell. This is all still in the beginning stages of happening so I haven't come up with a pricing system yet or anything. I really haven't decided if I am actually going to do this or not yet. And there would be a charge. As much as I would like to do this shit for free, I would eventually run out of product and supplies so, i will have to charge something. PLUS shipping is definitely NOT free, and I do apologize for that. So, if you guys like this idea, go ahead and shoot me an email or a comment on one of my many social networking platforms letting me know what you think.

The email address, finally lol I know I talk a lot, is VNJconfessions@gmail.com

Send me some love soon and let me know whats up and if you guys like my new idea of the designing and selling nail sets.

Much love!! <3

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Just A Quick Thank You

I started this blog in October of 2011 and started it as a hobby to share my nail art and techniques with those who are interested, to vent when I had no where else to go and to share things that I thought were worth sharing. I never really expected it to become what it has in these few short months. I have had so many hits on here from not just people I know, but people in other states and even crazier, other countries. I literally never thought that this many people would actually care to read the stuff that I either think is important or decided to ramble on about because I just had to get it off of my chest.

I love doing nails obviously. But I also like to share my life experiences with those that may need it and I like to keep people up to date on whats going on in the world (like my many SOPA/PIPA rants lol).

It still blows my mind that you guys read all of these things and it means a lot to me that strangers read my blog. Its almost like having a lot of invisible friends lol. Just kidding! But seriously, It does mean a lot to me and I would like to just take the time out to say thank you all, I love you all and that as long as you keep reading, I will keep posting.

I'm going to try this year to do more than just nail blogs and political blogs lol. I know that posting about politics is one way to start problems but the SOPA and PIPA mess was too much for me to NOT post about. Since we have this invisible, long distance and, in some cases, long distance friendship going I want to bring you guys more into my life a little. Not like sharing EVERYTHING but just for you to get to know me more.

Another thing that I wanted to say was that thanks to all of you guys, SOPA is now DEAD! I THINK PIPA is too but don't quote me on that. I am so happy that it's gone so that I can keep posting on here for you guys. Thank you all for clicking on the links I posted for the petitions and different articles to go to so you could all become informed citizens. As a young adult, I feel like it is important to make sure that people are and stay informed about the goings on of the country and the world since we are the future of it. And because I see so many people who either don't know or don't care or just cant make it home in time to watch the news.

Just because we have won this battle does not mean that we have won the Internet war though because I am pretty sure a bigger and more impactful (wait is that a word...) bill will surface but when it does, we will be ready.

Anyway, this random rant was just to tell you guys thank you soooo much from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog posts, watching my YouTube videos, following me on Tumbr and Twitter and Beautylish. I love you all and appreciate the support you give me. I look forward to new "Confessions" to post about soon :).

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First Post of 2012

I know I haven't posted in over a month or uploaded any new videos in even longer than that BUT I'm here now and that is what counts my lovely followers.

So, first post of 2012 is about SOPA/PIPA.

If you follow my blog then you are well aware that i am STRONGLY against these acts. But if your new to my blog, now is the perfect time to catch up ;)

So, for those of you who do not know what SOPA or PIPA are, they are the weak ass attempts of the government trying to censor the Internet.
SOPA stands for Stop Online Piracy Act
PIPA stands for Protect IP Act
If your not exactly sure what these mean, bing, Google or Yahoo, or whatever lovely form of finding information you prefer, it.

The basic idea is that the government thinks that the Internet is evil and full of copyrighted information and the solution they have come up with is to try and pass these acts that block certain websites from being accessed if they contain copyrighted information. Now, in theory that's all good but in reality it would eventually bring the Internet crashing down.

Let me explain further...

Many of the most used websites (Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter, YouTube, Blogger, Wikipedia, etc.) would be blocked from use forever. Why? Because people post copyrighted material on there all of the time. and its generally harmless things that get posted. BUT since its copyrighted material, whether infringement was intended or not, the government would see that website as a threat and block off all means of going to that website from the US forever. They are using "more job opportunities" as a way to get people to vote for it. But when you actually sit down to think about it,it would make more jobs unavailable and make the unemployment rate skyrocket and not only that, it would eventually put an end to the Internet its self in its entirety.

Today, January 18th, 2012 marks Internet Blackout Day!

Many of your favorite and most visited websites are "Blacking out" Google and Mozilla included. This is in protest to SOPA/PIPA and the ridiculousness of it. If you disagree with these and want to put your say in the matter, here is a way for you to do that...
https://www.google.com/landing/takeaction/
or just go to Google and click the big rectangle and it will take you to where you need to be to sign the petition. We need to tell congress to NOT vote these into effect!

So many peoples jobs not only rely on but require Internet use everyday. Its not only the bloggers/vloggers like me, but evangelists, churches who stream live services to those who cant make it out of the house to get to service, web designers, students, game designers, people in marketing/advertising, and countless others would be out of a job. Lets take a second to think about all of these people, their families and not to mention the people they help. We all use these

SOPA Is Bullshit

They are saying that it will help to save American jobs when in reality, it will hold back America and the possible progress that can be made to our country and actually LESSEN available jobs.

It may be a well intentioned Act but in reality it will hold us back. Yes there are plenty of people who abuse the Internet and illegally download music/movies/games/books/etc. BUT for every ONE person who abuses the power of the Internet, there are 5 more who use it in a POSITIVE way.

What these politicians don't understand about this act is that even if they pass it, there will still be people doing the illegal piracy junk. They will eventually find a way to work around this stupid act. So many different people use the Internet in not just their everyday lives but their jobs. If the SOPA is passed, the people who actually need the Internet for work will be put out of a job. Even if it doesn't happen right away, it will eventually come. Now, if this act is supposed to create MORE jobs, then why were these people not thought of? Because those politicians don't actually care. They just know that claiming that this act will "create" more jobs will make other politicians think that it is a legit claim without actually looking into it.

Our country should push forward but SOPA will push us BACK. Websites like Facebook, Google, Bing, Ask.com, Yahoo, Ebay, YouTube, Twitter, Tumblr, Beautylish, MTV.com, Blogger, and MORE will all be shut down. People like me who have Facebooks to keep in touch with friends in different towns, cities, states, and countries may be forced to loose touch with people they care about. People like (I can't believe I'm using him as am example, but...) Justin Bieber and Adam G. Sevani from Step Up 3D (Google him if your not sure who he is. While you still can that is...)were DISCOVERED on websites like YouTube. Many of the Gurus on YouTube who inspire millions of people with their talents every day have gotten more business because of websites like YouTube, Tumblr, Twitter and Beautylish. Why would the government want to mess with that?

Passing SOPA would destroy the Internet as we know it. When you think about it, SO MANY people NEED the Internet for their everyday jobs and lives. From the Taco Bell cashier whose registers update via Internet to serve the customers to the Marketing businessman who needs to check out the competition and has meetings via Web Chat to the YouTube guru who makes a living as a make up artist but gets more business because they get to showcase their talents online, to the celebrity who tries to get to know their fans better by a live U stream to the up and coming hopefuls who need to advertise their next show to gain fans to the church pastor who streams his sermons online for those who may be too sick to make it to service that day.

Stop SOPA for the love of our country and progress.

My 1st Nail Polish Haul

Shout out to my first ever nail polish haul! Yeah!!
AND shout out to my little sister who let me borrow her nails for this too and my AMAZING boyfriend who got me my Muppet polishes :)! Lol.

(If you don't feel like reading all of this, feel free to just click the pictures and look thru the swatches, OR here is the video on this haul!)



Ok, so first, let me start out with my usual disclaimer. I paid for four of these products with my own money. Two of them were paid for and given to me as gifts by my amazing boyfriend who got lost in Ulta just for me :). BUT either way, they were paid for with our own money and not sent to me for free. These products were ones that I have been wanting to purchase because I love the colors (or Kolors haha) in these collections and am not sponsored by these companies and did not receive them for free (well, from the companies anyway lol).

Allsrighty then, here are all of the polishes


Close up on the Kardashian Kolors Collection by Nicole by O.P.I.



Close up on the Muppets Collection polishes by O.P.I.


So, now for some swatches of them. I'll start with the Kardashian Kolors.


First off, this is "Sealed With A Kris". Keep in mind, these are all two coats (unless otherwise specified) no base, no top coat.




This polish is a really pretty matte deep red color no shimmers at all. Perfect for the holidays coming up or any other special occasions.

Next, "Kourt Is Red-y for A Pedi"




This one is also a matte polish and is a brighter red. I would almost go as far as to call it a ketchup red. Not in the gaudy way but in the bright and noticeable enough way. I would use it the way you would use a coral type color.

I also bought "Kendall On the Catwalk" and "Khloe had A Little Lam-Lam".
"Kendall On the Catwalk" is a really pretty blue glitter with silver, purple and a tiny bit of green glitters in it as well. "Khloe had A Little Lam-Lam" is a dark blue that's also matte. Not quite a navy blue but just shy of a midnight blue. These two colors also work gorgeously together. One thin coat of "Khloe had A Little Lam-Lam" with a thin coat of "Kendall On the Catwalk" and you have a perfectly blinged out nail look.

"Khloe Had A Little Lam-Lam"





"Kendall On the Catwalk"




Both of them together



Next, are the Muppet polishes. I have "Meep Meep Meep" (Professor Beaker's color) and "Designer DeBetter" (the fabulous Ms. Piggy of course).

"Designer DeBetter" is a silver with a few copper and pink shimmers in it. Its very pretty and light catching.





"Meep Meep Meep" is almost a pointsetta red with red and pink shimmers in it. Another polish that is great for the holidays!





Well, thats all for now my lovelies. Sorry for the long post today, but it was my first haul post. I'll eventually work out the kinks and get into my groove on how to do these better and hopefully shorter for you guys :)

Have We No More Freedom of Speech?

I'll probably get like tracked by the government for posting a blog about this. Or maybe even forced to take this post down, But while we still have SOME SMALL form of freedom of speech on the Internet left, I'll inform those of you who are still in-aware of the happenings happening now.

I was planning on doing a nail polish haul/swatches post tonight, but this is way more important to me right now.

Basically to sum up a long and wordy story, the government is trying to interfere and shut down/ban/whatever you wish to call it many of the websites we love for copyright infringement.

Now, I don't agree with or believe in piracy, but web sites like Google, YouTube, our beloved Blogger, Tumbler, etc. are at risk from this new bill. Not everyone who uses these sites illegally downloads content and shit on these sites. This is something that affects everyone from Gamers to Gurus to the people who are just trying to find the lyrics to their favorite songs to sing along with Lady Gaga and Nicki Minaj on the radio.

There are ways for you to stop this stupid nonsense from happening. Here is a link to a website where you can sign a petition saying that you disagree with this dumbass bill http://americancensorship.org/
Just enter the information asked for and hit send. Also, if you scroll down the page you can find more information as well. Of course you could also Google it (while you still can).

Here are some links to some sites that explain exactly whats going on.
http://www.techdirt.com/articles/20111115/15040016780/sopaprotect-ip-would-be-hideously-bad-video-gamers.shtml

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Protect_IP_Act

http://www.brookings.edu/papers/2011/1115_cybersecurity_friedman.aspx

Basically just look up Protect IP Act.

It effects people with domain names, people who look up help on games, people who blog, YouTubers, Bloggers, people who use Google for the news, People who go online because the Government won't fund libraries in their city anymore. If you don't agree with this ridiculous unnecessary act that not only interferes with our privacy, but out freedom of speech as well, then do your part and click on that first link so your voice can be heard.

Black n' Red

This is definitely one of the most simple nail looks that I have ever done. Literally the only thing more simple would be if I just painted my nails one solid color, which I was going to do, but you guys know me, I couldn't leave it just like that! So, I'm here to tell you about this simple nail look that turned out better than I planned for it to.



So, here is the story behind why my nails are so short. (If you don't feel like reading this part and my rant, feel free to skip down to the next paragraph, OR where you see the pic of the products used and go from there, I won't mind.) A very rude man decided to snatch his credit card from me at work because we no longer carry something that he really liked and was mad. Because of this, my middle finger nail on my right hand was clipped on the weak side and broke almost straight across. So, I had to cut my nails and find a quick fix for them polish wise until I had a chance to get my claws on some on the new Muppet nail polish from the new collection at Ulta, WHICH I will have a post on later. I also will have a post on the nail design that I had before the mean man broke my nail. And just for the record, I am not one of those girls that's like "OMFG i like broke an effing nail" I definitely wouldn't have cared as much if I hadn't just done them the night BEFORE lol. I was actually trying to decide whether to cut them or not and I guess I got my answer!

Ok, so I wanted something simple just to hold me over until I got my Muppet polish and I had painted them black and decided to put a thin coat of red glitter over them. When I did this, I didn't think that they looked that great and i didn't think that I was going to upload a post about them because they were so simple that I thought it was pointless. But people were actually asking me what kind of polish it was and how I did it so, here goes!

Here are my products used.



***DISCLAIMER***
I paid for all the products used with my own money. I use these products because I like them and I feel like they fit this nail look the best. I am not sponsored by these companies in any way.

base coat- Salon Sciences Fiberglass Networks
BLACK- Revlon Black Lingerie
GLITTER- Sephora by O.P.I. What's Your Poison
top coat- Salon Sciences Instant Artificials

What I did first was to put one coat of my base coat on my nails. Since they were short and I didn't have a free edge I only put one kind of thin coat on. When you have short nails, and you don't have a free edge, you don't have a way to seal your polish and your design in which ends up just making your polish pile up on your nails. If you have ever put too many layers of nail polish on your nails and ended up peeling off the polish because it was too much and too thick, you know what I mean.


The nest thing that I did was to put two thin coats of the black polish on. Revlon polishes tend to be thin (in my personal experience of course) and as I mentioned in my previous paragraph (see nail polish peeling), you want to avoid thick coats of polish. Be careful if you do have a thinner polish. They have a tendency to run like water off of the brush and off of your nail and onto your cuticle/skin.


***(TIP! If you do get polish on your skin, you can use a Q-tip soaked in acetone/nail polish remover or a paintbrush dipped in acetone/nail polish remover and take the polish off of the sides or wherever it is you don't want it. Just make sure that your careful to not get it on your design! You don't want to mess up all your hard work or even worse, have to start over!)***

I was originally going to leave my nails like this just plain regular solid black, but I couldn't leave it like that so I decided to add a thin coat of red glitter polish on top. Just one thin coat though (see previous paragraph on peeling). Every things better when you add glitter!


Last step, after the polish was completely dry, add one thin coat of top coat!


This polish look is very simple but the effect in the light is so pretty. Especially when its darker and you cant really see the black you just get some of the red shimmer catching the light. I hope you guys liked my simple nail look and give it a shot! Its good for fall because of the darker colors and you could even do a brown instead of black if you wanted. Let your creativity loose!

My Alternative, Unique and Ghetto Nail Art Tools

***My video on this matter***


Good nail art tools can be pretty expensive and there are so many that it adds up quick fast and in a hurry. So, I find my own ways of..."creating" nail art tools of my own. So, today I decided to go ahead and talk about the things that I like to use instead of normal tools.

One of the most commonly used items in nail art is the nail dotting pen. I've seen them for as cheap as $4.00+ shipping for a set on sites like eBay, all the way to as expensive as $10-$15 dollars for a set. Well, what I like to use instead of the traditional nail dotting pen is an open bobby pin. You can buy a pack of like 100 bobby pins at places like Wal-Mart, Target and Walgreens for under a dollar and its not like you need to worry about if you buy the right color if your using it only for nail art. I personally buy the ones that match my hair color only because I like to pin my bangs up so its a win win for me!

Bobby Pins also work as a way to pick up individual rhinestones for nail designs. But, if I'm trying to be more precise with the rhinestone I'm trying to pick up, especially the smaller ones, I like to (CAREFULLY!!!) use an open safety pin. I repeat, CAREFULLY! You just dip it in a little bit of top coat and grab a rhinestone and place it on the desired area on the nail that you want. You can buy packs of 100+ safety pins at not only the previous places mentioned in my last paragraph, but at the dollar store. Buy a pack, use some for nail art and the rest for all of your safety pin needs. This is WAY cheaper than going out and buying a tool made special for picking up rhinestones. If your dealing with a huge rhinestone that a bobby pin/safety pin wont hold, feel free to use tweezers. You should also use tweezers if your using things like pieces of gold foil or the dried flowers. As for nail beads, I haven't used them yet but when I do, I'm not sure what I'll use.

If I need to do a design where I'm doing a design with something like leopard spots, I like to use something like paper to put a drop of polish on it and dip my paintbrush in that (I'll get to those later). But paper can leak polish thru and make it stick to the surface I'm working on so I like to use index cards. Their thick enough so that the polish doesn't leak thru and I can buy a pack of 100 at one of the previously mentioned places above for a couple dollars.

Instead of spending a lot of money on special nail art brushes, I like to buy a big pack of normal paintbrushes at Wal-Mart and cut them down to size. I learned how to do this thanks to the fabulous Robin Moses who shows you how to cut them in this video riiiight here...

I also like to use regular flat top brushes to clean the excess polish from the sides of my fingers when I'm done with my design.

The Nail polish remover that I like to use is the kind that comes in a little jar that you stick your fingers in and swirl them around and the polish comes out that way. When it's time to get a new jar of remover, I like to keep the old jar and use it to clean my brushes. Kind of like the way that you keep a cup of water next to you when your painting on a canvas and you need to clean your brushes. They only cost a couple of dollars at (again I refer you to one of the previous paragraphs) one of the previously mentioned places. The way that I tell if I need to get a new one is when your nails start to come out discolored like the color of the nail polish remover. If you like, you can even empty out the jar and put some from the bottle in there. I like to do that with one of them that I kept that has bristles instead of a sponge.

So, that's my post on my alternative, unique, and some may call, ghetto nail art tools. I hope you guys can find this helpful, and if you have the actual tools and DON'T find this helpful, thanks for reading anyway and now you have some tips for if (nail gods forbid) one of your tools breaks and you need a last minuet alternative. Obviously, these are for the people that do their own nail art like me because I'm sure if you work in an actual salon, you have the good stuff. Enjoy!

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Happy painting!

Rachaels Pandas

I've been neglecting my blog a bit this past week I do apologize. Ok, so one of my best friends likes pandas a lot and Sailor Moon to. I was planning on doing some Sailor Moon nails on her but my navy polish decided to commit suicide down the stairs so I had to come up with another idea for her so I decided on pandas.

Here they are

I was inspired by a panda nail tutorial done by Cutepolish on YouTube Here is the link for anyone interested. Shes Amazing.



Ok, so here are the products used


***DISCLAIMER***
I paid for all of these products on my own with my own money. I am in no way Sponsored by these companies nor did I receive these for free. I just use them because I like them best and for this tutorial.

base coat- Salon Sciences Fiberglass Network
WHITE- China Glaze White on White
BLACK- Revlon Black Lingerie
RED- China Glaze Rose Among Thorns
GLITTER- China Glaze Carnival Lights
top coat- Salon Sciences Instant Artificials
and
a paintbrush but you could use an open bobby pin as well

The first step to the pandas was to use a base coat. Since Rays nails are short, I only used one thin coat of base coat. I find that thicker coats of polish on short nails dont always end up well and tend to peel off easier especially if they are too short to seal the free edge. So, thinner coats will definitely be your friend if you have short nails.


Next step was to make a circular shape with the white polish. This is to make the pandas head. It doesnt have to be perfect because we still need to add the ears and (for the girl) a bow. As long as you can tell its a circle-ish shape, your good.


After the pandas head shape has been done and completely dries, the next step is to add the first layer of the eyes, the ears and the noses. We decided to make one of the pandas a girl so, we gave all of them black noses except for two, one on each hand. They got red noses.



After the first layer of the eyes dried, it was time to add the whites of the pandas eyes.


Then I added the bows for the red nose girl pandas.


After the design completely dried, I used a thin coat of my favorite top coat to protect the little pandas.


As always, AND if your nails are long enough, make sure that you put at least one coat of each polish on your free edges to protect your nail art. And put at least one thin coat of top coat on your nails if they are short. A good top coat will work wonders for you and your nail art.

Also, these are simply the colors I used because we were making traditional pandas. So, if you want to get creative and make different crazy colored pandas, feel free to do so. Art is in the eye of the beholder and nail art even more so because they are your nails. So if you LOVE the color purple and want the pandas to have purple eyes instead of black, go for it and more power to you! Your nails and your nail art should be what you love no matter what.

The Tea Bag Method

I have a lot of people come to me asking me how I repair My broken nails.

Well, here is the answer to that question:
first of all, there is a difference to a "broken" nail and a chipped/cracked nail.

Broken nails can not be fixed because they are, in a word, broken. When you tell me that your nail is broken, I am assuming that your nail has gone from one long one to a short one and a tip that has come off.

Chipped nails are nails that have become uneven. Mine usually chip around the tips and start to peel. but sometimes, a piece of your nails can come off and i count that as a chip too.

Cracked nails are the most annoying in my opinion. They always seem to crack in the most inconvenient and possibly painful places. For example below the tip of the nail where your nerves are sensitive. Or, that ONE nail that decides to be a pain in the ass and start to crack right at the tip of your nail while the others are still nice long and pretty.

Now, for two out of three of those scenarios, I have a solution that can help you to save your chipped or cracked nails. If their broken, sorry but I'm not a magician. This solution is called the Tea Bag Method.

Now you cold of course go out of your way to go to the store and buy a the nail wraps and gel and a UV lamp to cure it and all that good and expensive stuff. OR, you could grab a tea bag or buy a cheap box of tea and try this.

Here is what you will need to do this. Well, my way anyway.




-An empty tea bag
-Scissors
-Base coat
-Acetone
(optional) Paintbrush or Cotton Ball/Q-tip

Now what you want to do first is to clean your nail. Your going to need acetone to do this but rubbing alcohol is an option if you don't have acetone. I have the one in the jar that you just stick your finger in but if you have a bottle, you can use a paintbrush and dip it into the acetone or put some onto a cotton ball or Q-tip and rub it onto the nail. The acetone takes off the natural oils and anything else like lotion or normal everyday hand gunk that may build up on your nails.
If your just repairing one nail and have the rest of your nails polished and dont plan on taking the polish off because you just want to fix that one nail, then here is what I do when I'm using a cotton ball. Put it on the top of the bottle of acetone, place your palm firmly against the cotton ball and turn the bottle upside down CAREFULLY. Then use tweezers to hold the cotton ball and clean the nail.

Ok, after your nail has been cleaned, your going to want to take your tea bag and make sure its empty.
Open it up completely into a big rectangle. Then take the open tea bag and measure it against your nail and cut out a piece to fit the crack of your nail.


Then your going to want to take your base coat and put a thin coat on your entire nail.

Then, take the strip of the tea bag that you cut off and sized to your nail and put it FIRMLY against the area thats cracked. Your going to want to put the edge of the tea bag as close to the edge with the crack as possible. If some of it gets onto your skin and off of the nail thats ok, when your done and its completely dry then you can file it off. Any bubbles you see you can squeeze out or pop with a pin.


after you have that piece of the tea bag firmly against your nail and have gotten rid of the bubbles and your first coat is dry (so that the bag doesnt move from where you have placed it), put a second coat of your base coat and seal your free edges.


When that dries, then you can file off (GENTLY) any excess that you see.

Now, if your trying to cover your entire nail because of peeling, the only thing different that your going to do is instead of cutting off a small strip of the tea bag, your going to cut a piece that fits your ENTIRE nail and then put down your base coat and press the piece of the tea bag against it. A cool trick i learned from YouTube is to grad a piece of plastic wrap and hold it against your nail to help smooth it out. Now if you use the plastic wrap, be very careful to not leave it on the nail too long or you can end up gluing it to your nail and THAT is definitely not part of this process.

Leopard Number Two!!!

Ok so I decided to try something new with the blog and so I added pictures of what my nails looked like as i went a long. I hope it's not TOO much. So, here is my second attempt at leopard print and I think I am getting the hang of this... So here is the look


And from another view...

Video tutorial for this look!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTYQOIJKLmw


After my first attempt at leopard print (see "Fall and Leopard Print") I fell absolutely IN LOVE with it and decided to dedicate more nail space to it and came up with that.

Here are my products used


***DISCLAIMER***
I purchased all of these products with my own money and did not use them for the company I just honestly love these products and chose to use them with my own free will. My opinions are simply mine and not biased by the companies. And I am not sponsored by an of these companies.

Base coat- Salon Sciences Fiberglass Networks
NUDE- Sally Hansen Nail Growth Miracle in Innocent Nude
BLUE- Kiss Nail Art Paint in Soft Blue
PINK- Kiss Nail Art Paint in Beach Pink
SILVER Glitter- Sinful Colors Nail Art in Fashionista
LIGHT GREEN- China Glaze in Re-Fresh Mint
GOLD Glitter- Sinful Colors Nail Art in Flower Girl
BRIGHT GREEN Kiss Nail Art Paint in Beach Green
BROWN- Revlon in Hot For Chocolate
BLACK- Revlon in Black Lingerie
top coat- Salon Sciences Instant Artificials

Paint brush for the dots
A paper to use as a pallet

1. I applied my favorite base coat twice to clean nails.



After one coat...

After the second coat.

2. I applied one coat of the nude color because two of the Fiberglass Networks base coat is kind of opaque in its self. So, in my personal opinion one coat is enough.




3. I took the blue and pink polish and the piece of scrap paper and dropped big spots of polish on the paper so that I could use it as sort of a make shift artists pallet and took the paint brush and made small pink and blue dots all over my nails for the main big spots.

Here is what it looked like


4. Then I took the silver glitter and made a line separating the are with the spots from the area with just the nude shade of polish

Here is what it looked like


5. I took the light green and made dots with the scrap paper and paint brush in a "v" shape Which I outlined with the gold glitter. I did this on my ring fingers only.




6. With the lime green I decided to make zebra stripes in the space on my ring finger that was open. I had to go over it about three times to get it opaque enough.


7. Then I took my scrap paper and dropped some black for all of my nails EXCEPT my ring finger and used the pain brush to make little "c" like shapes around my nail as well as Random little tiny black dots. Then I took the brown polish to do the same thing with the brown polish because i figured that brown would look better against the green.


8. With my usual top coat and after all my nails had completely dried of course, I put two coats of my Instant Artificials top coat to seal and protect my design and my nails.


As always make sure to hit your free edges with at least one coat of each polish you use to help thicken your nails, protect them and to seal and protect your nail art!